Sometimes I'll go to church and I'll see these young guys in there showing everyone and their mom that they would rather be home or elsewhere. That hurts my heart because I have talked to some of these young men and they're afraid that they'll get ridiculed for praising God. Well here's some news for you, as a female, I get ridiculed too and for a while I would sit back and watch everyone else praise God while holding back on my own praise.
I remember when I was on the praise and worship team with a few young ladies my age. We were on FIRE for Christ and nothing was going to hold our praise back. Then we had to go back away to school..........
My fire died because I felt alone. I saw and heard how we were being ridiculed because "we were extra about everything", "we said Hallelujah a little too much", "we thanked God too much". But then I went and found a Christian Fellowship at my school. The fire was back and that whole year I was a radical and I even gained a nickname from my co-workers that summer (Sista T).
I came home and it died again. My friends weren't there and once again, I was alone. I felt like my true praise would only come out around people I was comfortable with who were also on fire like I was.
Sometimes I wonder if that's what happens to these young men. Or maybe it's the fact that they don't want to be called "gay" because they love God and show it. Why are people so judgmental??? It's killing me!!!
But then again.........................
You have these men who come to church willingly, they will praise God no matter who's watching, no matter what people say. I tend to find myself looking in their direction during worship and looking at the guys who sit there mean muggin all hard and I wonder.......Were they mean muggers before they became praisers??? Or did they just not care what people thought??? Or did they do it just to impress this girl??? And YES some of them do...........
Whatever the reason...I wish we had more of the ones who don't mind shedding some tears, or lying prostrate before the Almighty, or even lifting their hands in praise. WHERE ARE YOU???
Religion is a touchy topic, not all people feel the need to walk around preaching or saying scriptures from the bible. Going to church doesnt make you Holy ! I think those that go to church and announce it are the most fake. GOD is within . know that there is a higher power, and you dont have to make a party of it every time.
ReplyDeleteI see where you're coming from and it makes me wonder. I personally don't think people who are proud to serve God are fake. Yes some of them do it for show, but you have people who are sincere and just want others to know how good God is and know that there is another way to live.
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