What Am I Here For?

So I'm told that I'm very talented. I can sing, dance, write a little bit and speak to some people. I'm not great at any of it but I can do it. Sometimes I see/hear people do things and all I can think is I wish I could do something like that and they tell me I can.

My singing is ok, I can use A LOT of training vocally. What I can do is good for someone who has no type of vocal training. I can dance but I have this tendency to be extra stiff and LOOK choreographed. I can write but my thoughts are almost always all over the place. So it makes me wonder what am I here for? I tried speaking to people, some don't understand where I'm coming from, some want to dispute everything I say and some even ignore my every word.

Hmm...I'm not a great speaker, not a great singer, not a great dancer, not a great writer...What am I???

Well according to some people, I'm a great example. I can't do much but live right and be me and show other people who I am through my actions. Sometimes I just wish that there was more I could offer. I want to be able to get my thoughts out in this elaborate manner as poets do, sing effectively like some people I know, dance effectively, and speak to the point where people will remember something I said and be able to help someone with that.

I was always told I was different, and I didn't want to be, but at the same time I like being unique. I just wish sometimes that I possessed certain qualities that other people I know possessed. Since I don't have those qualities, I will use what I do possess. Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for all of the qualities I have, I just don't know how to really use them.

I'm going to use them though and be about my Father's business as Jesus said in Luke 2:49. I have a mission that I have to complete and I'm working toward that completion everyday. It would be nice if I knew what MY purpose was though, maybe I could walk in it like I really want to. Until then I'll continue to live my life for God and be that example some people see me as. Then when my purpose is clear to me, I'll walk in that.

Now I'm thinking...What if my purpose IS being an example???

Something else to think about.

Later Loves

Sista T

Are you "the one"?

A lot of people in my age range are talking and/or thinking about marriage. Some question if they'll ever get married, if marriage is for them, if they will ever get divorced, and so forth. I'm one of the ones who question, will I ever be married?

Yea I know I'm still young, I'm turning 22 real soon and as some people say the clock is ticking. I always said when I was in high school that I wanted to be married at age 22 and have my first child before I turned 25. The chances of that marriage happening is VERY slim for the simple fact that I'm still single and not really looking for anything right now.

I always sit around like I really want to know who I will marry in the future. I know what I want and I can't seem to find it. Just when I was about to lower my standards, a friend of mine was talking about how he hated when females lowered their standards because they deserved the best. For a second I really went and tried to defend females lowering their standards but then I thought, why would I settle for something less than what God wants me to have? God sent his Son Jesus Christ to die for me so that I could live eternally. Jesus was brutally beaten and nailed to a cross for me, if that isn't love, I have no clue what it is. I want a man who will love me like Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:25).

My sis Nicole wrote a poem called prototype and in this poem, she wrote what the ideal man was for her. She also was about to lower her standards, but then we met some incredible guys and she wrote a second part to Prototype and in this poem she said:

"The later type is who I envision as my husband...and if you stood right in front of him...you'd be his reflection...Cause when I looked in your eyes I said there's the prototype...I thought I raised the bar too high, needed to lower my expectations...Then I met you"

That reminded me so much of my thoughts toward my best male friend. He gave me hope that there were still good men out there. I'm still wondering who I'll marry, but now I refuse to lower my standards. Thanks to God, I have these great men in my life to help me out. Love you guys!!!

That's all for now...

God Bless

Sista T

Something's Missing

I know I'm talking about relationships a lot, but I see a LOT of young people getting married now and they are settling for less than what they deserve. I posted this song Every Girl (Remix) a few blogs ago and this is what really had me thinking about people and their situations.

Back in April of 2009, GI(God's Image) released their self-titled debut album. On this CD was a song "Something's Missing". In the beginning Marlon 'Artist' Anderson stated that "The relationships that last a lifetime are the relationships that are ordained by God." I find this statement to be so true and while listening to the song, 2 Corinthians 6:14 came to mind. It reads:

Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?

We need to be in constant communication with God in relationships, well all the time, but especially in relationships. Sometimes people are placed in our lives to teach us certain things, and if you go through the same thing in every relationship. PLEASE don't blame it on the opposite sex. The problem is you lol, seriously. That only means that you haven't learned what you needed to learn and you're going to go through it until you learn and grow from it.

Sometimes we get into relationships and we get this gut feeling like something isn't right. I would advise everyone to pray and find out what it is because sometimes it's God telling you that you don't belong there. I know most people heard the saying "everything that glitters isn't gold," well if only you knew just how true it was. Listen to the song and you will get an example of what I mean.